Yesterday I had an appointment to see a Neuropsychologist about my seizures and to find out how/if we can get them under control.  I have previously had an EEG that, to my relief, was negative, so I have been diagnosed with Non-Epileptic Attack Disorder (NEAD).

At first, I thought that this was a bit of a non-diagnosis and that people must be thinking I am putting it on!  However, after speaking with the Neuropsychologist, I now understand exactly what these seizures are and how we can start to control them using psychotherapy.  It would appear that NEAD is quite common and the seizures that I have are as real as epilepsy.  NEAD seizures can be caused by a multitude of things including; stress, anxiety, depression, medication, the list goes on.  In my case, it would appear that the medication used to control my depression is lowering my seizure threshold and adding other contributing factors such as my depression could be causing my symptoms.

It is hoped that with the help of a psychotherapist, I should be able to explore the reasoning behind my depression and try to get to the bottom of it once and for all.  By doing this, I could potentially end my dependence on antidepressants as well as reducing my stress, anxiety and depression levels, which all contribute to my NEAD symptoms.  I have now been placed on a waiting list to see a psychotherapist, so it’s now a waiting game of around six to eight months, although I have been given some self-help exercises that I can do in the meantime to try and help my symptoms.  I could pay and go and see someone private, but we have an exceptional health service in the UK and I would rather wait and see someone that, if the NHS trusts in what they deliver, then I can be assured that they are going to do their best to help me help myself.

For now, I accept that I may still have the odd seizure, but I do feel a bit better knowing exactly what is going on and that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  I will keep putting on my running shoes, hitting the streets and try and keep as positive as possible.