It’s been a tough couple of months!
2018 hasn’t started off the way I had imagined. To be honest it’s been a bit rubbish, but as they say, “Things can only get better!”
Just before Christmas I was diagnosed with another bout of depression, I was prescribed some antidepressants and after a few weeks, everything seemed to be on the up. My mood was good, I was sleeping properly and my running was feeling easier again. For the previous few months I was finding it hard to find the motivation to run!
We spent New Year up in Scotland and something started to happen to me. My life took a sharp left turn!
First of all on New Year’s eve, my wife noticed that I was going into a daydream. We didn’t think much of it at the time, in fact we went on a 15km run around St. Andrews on that day, so that Gayle could complete her 1000 mile running challenge.
Over the next 24 hours, and as we journeyed home, I experienced more and more symptoms. I was blanking out, having spasms in my left arm and leg and tremors in my right hand. I ended up in hospital and was diagnosed with probable Epilepsy.
The last few months have been a bit of a roller coaster. I’ve had quite a few seizures and we are still battling to get my Epilepsy under control. I tried to run a half marathon in January but had to abandon it at the 9.5k mark after two absence seizures. It was better to get a DNF than try and battle on and make things worse.
Although my seizure activity hasn’t settled down completely and has evolved into convulsions, I am going to attempt to run another half marathon on Sunday. Why do I want to do this so soon? Yes, I want to prove to myself that I can still run 13.1 miles, but more than that, I don’t want to let these seizures beat me. I don’t want Epilepsy to define me and I don’t want it to control me. Running is something I enjoy. I have a goal this year to run 12 Half Marathons in 12 months for MIND, so I intend to start this Epilepsy journey the way I mean to go on….always pushing on and reaching for my goals despite it.
I am due to see a Neurologist on Monday, hopefully we can get my medication sorted out to halt the seizures completely and bring back my running to full form.